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Unread 09-18-2012, 09:45 AM   #101
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good to hear from you!!! cant wait to see the photos
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Unread 09-20-2012, 02:59 AM   #102
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Still trying to upload the baby pictures but, here are pictures of me and the family. I'm the gal with dark hair. My oldest will be 15 this month and my youngest is 9. Lady at my nursing graduation is my Mom. Going to upload baby pictures next

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Unread 09-20-2012, 07:15 AM   #103
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Beautiful pictures. What a lovely photogenic face you have! Best Wishes.
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Unread 09-20-2012, 08:05 AM   #104
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Hi MelMomma, beautiful! Can't wait to see the babies next!

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Unread 09-20-2012, 11:33 AM   #105
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mel, you are so pretty, and have such a wonderful smile. I would never in a million years think when looking at those pictures that you were once suffering so much from addicition. You look so happy and beautiful!!!!
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Unread 09-20-2012, 01:23 PM   #106
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Deanna and Twinmom, how are you guys doing with the w/d? How long have you been off now? Hope all is well!
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Unread 09-21-2012, 10:23 AM   #107
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I am still on suboxone, 2 mg, Mel can answer all those questions
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Unread 09-22-2012, 10:16 AM   #108
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Hey MommaMel & Co., congrats on 1 year, wheeee hooo! jesus, what a difference a year makes, huh? How are the little grenades doing. LOL Very cool that hubby and the older cuties are good help to you. Is this week the week he starts not being home those 3 nights a week? See if you can get some friends to help you while he's away. That's gonna be a lot on just you and the older kids.

You have a beautiful family. Great shots. Know you're busy, but we're waiting on the baby pics......... Did you get rid of the infection, something you don't need with everything else going on.

Positive energy, lots of it, and hugs! -Mary
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Unread 09-29-2012, 09:24 AM   #109
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BABY PICS!!!!!!
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Unread 10-04-2012, 07:47 PM   #110
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Photobucket hates me!

Trying to upload my bunchkins pictures for an hour.

Now lil feller crying Will update more tonight.

All is well otherwise. Feeding, burping, changing, washing rocking babies!

Still sober and happy!

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thank you Mel for posting to me. It really was a great post. I hope those babies are doing great, and you too.
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Unread 10-11-2012, 09:01 AM   #112
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You're welcome Deanna. No need for a thank you. Thats what we do!

It finally happened! Professional photos taken Tuesday, will have an edited disk to upload pictures soon!I'm keeping up reading the posts, just hard to find time to write. Babies 6 weeks old now. Stopped nursing, was draining me literally.Hormones leveling off, so I dont feel AS crazy! Post more soon.

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Unread 10-11-2012, 08:10 PM   #113
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Hi MommaMel, 6 weeks old already? Yikes! Time sure flies.

Post when you can. We all know how busy you are, so no pressure either to see the pictures of the two lovelies!

Take care of YOU too, ok?

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Unread 10-12-2012, 12:04 AM   #114
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Aahh, finally a free half hour for myself

My hubby has been out of town Monday through Friday (until January) so, it's been "crazier" around here for sure. My oldest 2 kiddos are really pitching in & helping out, for that I am blessed. My 10 year old daughter can wash bottles better & faster than most adults. My 15 year old son will watch the babies as they sleep so I can run to the corner grocery store for an hour. They do many other chores too (vacuuming, dishes & laundry). It's not easy but, we all make it work.

The babies are outgrowing their newborn clothes! Splitting the seams at just 6 weeks old! They each gained over 3 pounds at their one month checkup. James almost 10 lbs, Rosie 9.5 lbs.

I was breastfeeding them & supplementing with formula. I'm glad I did it for their health but, it took me an hour to feed them, every 3 hours. I was getting sick & tired, so my supply suffered. My doctor said that since my hemoglobin was still low at my 6 week checkup, she said to hang up the nursing. So I did. Was sad at first but I feel so much better now

Which brings me to my next plight. I was cleared to go back to exercise. I gained over 60 pounds, most of it in the last 8 weeks of the pregnancy. I lost 25 lbs so far (mostly babies) and I have much more to lose. I talked to my doctor about medical weight loss & she said it's not a bad idea short term. To just be up front about my prior addiction to opiates. Just worried the meds could be a problem. Although amphetamines were never my thing and the type she prescribes is less likely to be addictive (Tenuate). Weigh in if you can (no pun intended).

The anxiety has been unreal the last 6 weeks. Even when the babies are asleep, I have a hard time sleeping. Crazy bc I'm so exhausted. Makes no sense. Ive had these fleeting thoughts, crazy irrational fears too, like something could happen to the babies. I think I've just seen too many SIDS babies at work. It's not impairing my wellbeing but, crazy images pop into my head & it's starting to freak me out. Have I gone kinda nuts? Postpartum psychosis?

No temptation to use. Only took ibuprofen to recover from the delivery. No meds everyday. Just vitamins still. Oh and iron. Tempting to smoke again but, I couldn't expose the kids/babies to it. So it keeps me doing right & staying healthy. I would like a glass of wine to chill out before bed. Never really drank too much but, it's not worth the risk.

I know this is a lot to digest. I just wanted to say what's on my heart & catch you guys up.

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p.s. Love my babies, all 4 of them
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Unread 10-12-2012, 11:20 AM   #115
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Hi MommaMel, wow, you really do have your hands full with your husband being away all week. Your older kids sure are a big help to you though. That's so nice to see them pitching in. Maybe you can get them a sewing machine to keep up with the babies' growth!

You did what you could do with the nursing. I'm glad you're ok with not doing it any more - you need to be healthy to have the strength to take care of everyone (including yourself).

I read this about the Tenuate.
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0000552/

What I might be concerned with more than anything else is that it could make you drowsy, and it could cause anxiety. Those two things out of the list of side effects make me a bit worrisome. You don't need to be drowsy right now and with your anxiety already heightened, I'd hate to see you end up with even more.

Maybe just try and get some exercise first before you try the Tunuate. I know you're not exactly sitting around doing nothing, but maybe you can get in a little bit of aerobic exercise here and there during the day. Even 10 minutes at a time throughout the day is beneficial.
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/fit...robic-exercise

They have those 10-minute solution videos for just about everything.
http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_ss...te%2Caps%2C233

Have you talked to your doctor about the irrational fears and not sleeping? Have you tried melatonin or even Sleepy Time tea to see if that can help calm you? Please don't let it get out of hand. If it is post-partum, maybe there are some other supplements you can take to try to help calm the anxiety.

I found these links (not sponsored by any supplement company):
http://www.livestrong.com/article/23...-calm-anxiety/
http://www.livestrong.com/article/24...&utm_medium=a1

That's my opinion, I hope that it's somewhat helpful.

Hugs to you and your four babies.

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Unread 10-18-2012, 03:05 PM   #116
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Hey MommaMel & the gang, what's going on, are you feeling any better. You gotta sleep, you think that could be why you're more anxious because you can't sleep and then you get more anxious from it? Kinda like going around in a big circle type deal.

Sending positive energy that you're doing better. Hugs to you and 'the gang'. -Mary
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Unread 10-22-2012, 09:27 AM   #117
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Hi Mel, IM sorry I havent read your thread, been so absorbed with my son and my own issues.
Hey, definately dont take the meds for weight loss (in my opinion) because you can lose that weight all by yourself. And 60 lbs is good for twins!! Are you kidding me? I gained 60 just with my son, lol. He was 9 lbs 10 ozs when he was born. It took me about 6 months to lose the weight, I just lowered calories and stayed active....which you already do with all the kids. Just give yourself a little bit of time, it'll happen. Make your husband get you an exercize bike and hop on that thing with one of the babies on your back in a carrier thing and go to town, itll be like rocking them to sleep.
And the anxiety, well I get that. I sometimes wonder if addicts are more prone to it somehow, because I certainly read it on this board alot. I do believe since you are a nurse and have seen horrible things happen to children that that is why you feel that way. And lack of sleep makes everything worse. Your mind starts playing tricks on you, you are more foggy and not alert, almost like a hangover, and then the anxiety kicks in and your feeling stoned.....thats how I feel anyway.
Well, Mel, hang in there. Im sending a big cyber hug to you for sticking with me, and if I can help you in any little way, you know I will be right here. Prayers and love back at ya.
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Hello to all the sweet folks living in my computer I am feeling much better these last two weeks. I think maybe my hormones are finally leveling out from being double pregnant, not pregnant, nursing, not nursing and now PMS! My face is breaking out & the only craving I'm having is dark chocolate. I've been indulging in that one though

The kids are good, out of school this week for fall break. So, lots of help, yay! Although my 15 yr old son got busted by me & hubby for smoking cigarettes a couple weeks ago. So he's all kind of grounded. The draw of addiction/drugs starts at such a young age! Not tolerating that! My 9 yr old daughter is getting over a kidney infection, she ran a fever & vomited for 5 days. The dr almost put her in the hospital. So grateful shes better

The babies are doing great! 8 weeks old today they have the sweetest smiles and the best dispositions. They get fussy in the evenings between 5 & 10 off/on. Nothing to complain about. Sleeping 6 hrs at night too! My photographer is enhancing their photos and pasting some pictures together. I cant wait to see them and share them with you all too!

Now Nancy, you know nurses are the worst patients. We rarely take advice yet feel compelled to deal out advice ourselves! I did see the nutritional specialist. She said I was just over the line from overweight to clinically obese now. She sent me to a nutrition class & gave me some good "workup" exercises, starting with 5 minute stair climbs each day. She did rx me Tenuate but only a small dose to take in the morning, due to my trouble sleeping. I haven't noticed any difference at all in my stress level. I'm eating better and sleeping 6 hours at night now (thanks to my babies). So, all in all, I'm doing about 50% better in the sleep and anxiety department. Thanks for always being do great to listen to me. You're a good egg God only knows the countless people you have walked with on their journey out of addiction. You will be blessed!

Hi Mary I am feeling better. Yes, the anxiety/insomnia cycle is terrible! Once I was able to get 5-6 hours of consistent sleep at night, the anxiety really got better. I'm still a little bit stressed but, not the crippling anxiety like before. I'm so glad to hear from you How cool that so many people are getting help from your taper tips thread? It just goes to show you how, when we all stick together, we can really make a dent in the disease of addiction!

My Deanna, I know you have been overencumbered with your own life events. Never apologize, we know you keep up with all of us, even when you dont have time to respond. No problem. You're still my girl

I do agree though, I think many of us started into our addictions because we were self medicating for something. Whether it was emotional pain, anxiety, depression or a combination of everything. Thats what the "judgmental" crowd who looks down on addicts do not understand. There is a legit, organic, chemical imbalance in our brains we are just trying to level out. And more often than not, the self medicating gets out of hand. I know a lot of non-addicts that are just purely losing their mind and should be on medication. One of my old coworkers just had a nervous breakdown. More like a full psychotic break. You cant walk around with that level of anxiety forever. Either you treat it properly, self medicate with drugs/alcohol or have a full breakdown.

Thank you all for checking on us We're doing better. Finding our groove! Will share baby pics when they're done photo shopping!

Much Love and Thanks,
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Unread 10-22-2012, 03:37 PM   #119
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Be careful of diet pills please. I have a dear friend who was addicted for years (she is not anymore and has lost 70 pounds on WW)

In my drinking days I'd but tenuate to bolster my drinking time. Very speedy stuff danger!

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Unread 10-23-2012, 05:17 PM   #120
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YOu sound happy Mel, which makes me happy
I know you will be careful of the diet stuff. You got this.
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Unread 10-23-2012, 09:03 PM   #121
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Hi Mel, oh, I'm glad to hear you're feeling better. YES, indulge away in that dark chocolate. It's good for you, antioxidants and all that. My excuse anyways. hahaha

That's great that your kids are around to help out more this week. How's your son handling being grounded, hope he learned that lesson. Yikes, that must have been scary for your 9 year old. Poor thing. Glad she's better.

I can't believe the babies are 2 months old already! That went fast. Really nice that they sleep for 6 hours and you're able to sleep right along with them. For nurses being lousy patients, you're breaking that myth by going to the nutritionist and doing your exercises. You are doing them, right?

Probably the more solid sleep you get, the anxiety will lessen. Fingers crossed. Thanks for the update. Can't wait to see the pictures!

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Unread 10-24-2012, 01:57 PM   #122
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Finally!

I had my photographer post the twins baby portraits to her business page.

https://m.facebook.com/home.php?_rdr...user=573169132

It should go directly to their album. She posted 50 pics out of hundreds.

Luv My Babies,
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Dammit MommaMel, that link doesn't work. For me anyways. I don't do Facebook, could that be why?

So very cool that you and the babies big and little are getting into a groove. Psyched that you're feeling better and getting sleep too.

YOU ROCK WOMAN!

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Hi Mel, I tried to look and the link took me right to my facebook page...bummer. I hope to see what the cuties look like!!
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Ugh, kill my life...

I will open a shutterfly account as soon as the picture disc comes in the mail. But, I am trying.

Terrible night last night. Dead girl walking today. Up with babies every 3 hours to feed them. Crazy babies. Husband still out of town until late tonight.

My 33rd birthday is tomorrow & all I want is sleep! Oh and for FL to beat Ga! So, send some football dust & ZZZzzz vibes.
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Unread 10-27-2012, 08:03 AM   #126
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Happy birthday Mel!!! I hope that you have a fabulous day! Try to sneak even just a little bit of time to do something totally for you. Even if it's nothing!

What a great year you've had, so much accomplished with being addiction free, then medication free and the joy of the two sweet babies to add to your sweet family.

I wish many many more years full of love and happiness.

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Happy birthday Mel!!! Have a great day, especially with hubby home! Mary will come by and give you all the sleep beams you need hugs!
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Good Evening All,

My heart is so heavy tonight. I got a call from a family member of a sweet young man who helped inspire me on my path of recovery. It was not good news.

Since I was a very "different" opiate abuser, I felt that no one would understand how hard it would be to quit. He not only understood but, he'd been in my shoes a year before I got sober. There were times I literally thought I was losing my mind during the detox, stabilization, Suboxone induction (paranoia, extreme anxiety, sickness, you name it) and I knew that if he made it out alive, I would too.

He was a heroin addict, addicted to the needle as much as the heroin. Homeless, hospitalized & physically deteriorated. He qualified for an intensive inpatient program that took him in over a year! It was a faith based program called Teen Challenge. He taught and led groups for other young people going through addictions. He shared his story through many churches, inspired so many, brought so much support to this life changing program.

After a year of inpatient, extended care & sober living, he was given an outpatient opportunity, given a job and an apartment, as long as he could show up for meetings & pass random drug tests, he would continue to receive help to get on his feet.

He showed up for a mandatory meeting, refused a drug test & was kicked out of the program. No one has heard from him in almost two weeks. My mind is racing. I'm so pissed at him but, so wanting to fix him at the same time. It's scary to think of where he could be and what he could be doing.

The part that scares me the most, is that it could've been me.

Thanks for listening. Pray for him & his family. Hate this disease...
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Hi Mel, sending good thoughts that your friend is safe and will contact someone soon.

It seems like the tables could be turned now - you are now his example and inspiration to follow. I hope you hear soon.

Please update us when you can.

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Thank you Nancy.

He did make a post n his fb page so, he must be ok. Just baffles me.

Hit with more hard news yesterday. I haven't even processed it so, I'm not sure how to share it. Lets just say that, just because I stopped "sewing bad seeds" over a year ago, doesnt mean I'm exempt from "reaping the harvest" today. It's huge life changing stuff and I'm trying to navigate it one day at a time.

I feel like I had to relive the last 4 years all over again last night. Like watching a bad movie which seemingly built up to a happy ending. I guess we'll find out in time how it all ends.

Our babies are good, 2 months old now. Giggling, smiling, happy babies. They keep a smile on my face when I could just be miserable & worried for hours. My kids are good, healthy, obedient & so helpful. I'm blessed. Hubby out of town but, will be home Friday.

Say a prayer for this girl & all involved. Sober 13.5 months.

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Hi Mel, I'm glad he's ok. But I'm worried about you. If there's anything we can do, let us know.

The giggling little ones must be so cute and such a distraction for you and it so nice there's no sibling rivalry and the big brother and big sister are of such help.

We're here for you. Sending good thoughts and keeping my fingers crossed for you and all involved.

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HiMel, just catching up, have the day off. Im sorry to hear about your young friend. I hope everythings ok. I wouldnt assume that since he posted on facebook that he was though, but thats just me and my paranoid personality. It seems so odd he would do that after a year of complying with his program.....
and you, well I dont know what is going on, but I sure hope everything is ok. If you have processed it now, maybe you can write about it and fill us in. Im thinking of you..
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Hi Mel, just checking in to see how you are. Let us know when you have time.

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Unread 11-09-2012, 03:28 PM   #134
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Heres hoping you can see the babies pictures I uploaded to photobucket.

http://m686.photobucket.com/albums/m...AYYAsnW9l6Q%3D

I'll post more when the babies nap. All is okay. Just stressing.

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Or try this, it's the regular website, not the mobile link.

http://s686.beta.photobucket.com/use...arie26/profile
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Unread 11-10-2012, 07:43 AM   #136
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Hi Mel, omg! They are adorable! They must be a joy to be around! Thank you soooo much for sharing them with us.

I hope your stress will be able to end soon. We're here if you need to vent.

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awwww thanks for posting Mel!!! so cute. Are you doing ok?? Post when you can. I know you are busy, but we are here
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Unread 11-11-2012, 10:45 AM   #138
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OMG, how frickin' adorable are they! MommaMel, talk to us when you can.

Lots of positive energy and cuddly hugs to all. -Mary
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Unread 11-11-2012, 11:11 AM   #139
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Hello,

I was reading through some posts here thought I'd leave my support for you.

I hope your friend is ok. I know how that feels to worry about someone you love and not be able to "fix" it.

Your babies are so adorable. God Bless them !!
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Unread 11-15-2012, 10:34 AM   #140
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Hey Guys

It's been a crazy last couple of weeks. Some good news, some bad. Most importanly, I'm sober and the family and I are healthy. Most of the bad news relates to 2 of my friends.

The young man who opted out of his outpatient program is alive & well but, not unscathed. He had a terrible relapse, worse than his using had ever been before. He fell asleep near a candle, his clothes caught fire & he was severely burned on his chest, shoulder & neck. Needle still in arm when he woke. He was so sedated he haf a delayed reaction to the pain of his skin burning. His burns wouldn't have been so bad had he awoken sooner. He's in a local hospital burn center, on a form 1013 and will have to do inpatient rehab again. Grateful it didn't end in death for him.

A nurse friend of mine, 49 years old, was found in her home unresponsive by her mother. The paramedics provided CPR and she was transported to the ER in which we all work(ed). After exhausting every resource, she was pronounced dead 45 minutes after arrival. It's crushing to all of us but, especially to our coworkers who had to work on her. Her urine drug screen was grossly positive for opiates and benzos. Her arms and legs tracked up. No one would've ever known. She always wore sleeves, I thought she was cold natured. Her funeral was last weekend and it was one if the saddest I'd ever been to. All of my friend are reeling.

My "problem" was dealt with last week. All I can say is that God really had mercy on this undeserving soul. Paperwork got lost, my name disappeared from a list and I was told to keep my mouth shut (so that's exactly what I'm doing). I have 1 year and 8 months until I won't have to worry with it any longer. Being sober almost 14 months might have an unexpected reward. That's all I have to say about that

Oh babies, babies! 11.5 weeks old. Rosie rolled over last night, several times. Pretty early for her to be doing that. I'm already thinking they'll need a baby corral of sorts! Theyre sleeping well at night. James is my repeat offender who keeps waking up at 2am but, I'm working with him to get him to sleep through the night (pacis are wonderful). They both started laughing really well last week. It's amazing to watch their faces as they discover more things about this world and themselves.

Hubby still out of town Monday through Friday. He got a job offer from a family friend which would require us to move. Working at a funeral home, preparing bodies and such. We'll see if money talks. It'll all work out like it should.

My oldest 2 kids are good. My son got his learners license :/ Pray for this Momma! My daughter tried out for archery at school & made the team! Both are doing well in school and keeping up with chores at home. They love their little "Brody and Sisto!"

As for me, well, I'm doing okay in light of losing a friend and almost losing a friend to this cunning disease. The "problem" I had hanging over my head was stressing me too. I've just decided to let go of all of it. I have zero control over any of it anyway. My health is good. B12 shots save my life. Down another 8lbs since starting the Tenuate. No side effects, with the exception of weight loss

Thank you all for listening and for supporting me. I'm glad you finally got to see my babies I need to post some updated photos too.

Take Care, Much Love,
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Unread 11-15-2012, 08:23 PM   #141
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Oh Mel, I'm so sorry for you loss and to hear about what happened to that young man. Both horrible. I hope you and your friends are leaning on each other in this time of grief.

I am glad that your problem has disappeared. But I do have to correct you - you are not an undeserving soul. Far from it! Look at you and look at all you've accomplished through your hard work and determination.

Sounds like all the kids are doing well. How would you feel about moving? Would it be really far? I hope it works out to you and your family's advantage - no matter which way it goes.

Congratulations on losing the weight! I'm glad there's no side effects attached to the medication.

Again, my sympathies on the loss of your friend; and sending good thoughts that the young man heals without much in the way of problems.

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Unread 11-17-2012, 10:29 AM   #142
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Oh Mel, Im so sorry to hear the news. I know first hand how aweful it feels to have someone so close to you go through that. He is so lucky to be alive. And so sorry about your co worker. Thats horrible, its a shame no one knew how sick she was, but we all know how well we hide our addiction to feed it.
I am glad you are doing well, you are one tough cookie.
Gotta make this short today, just wanted to let you know Im sorry to hear the bad news, but also happy to see you are hanging in their through it all.
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Unread 12-05-2012, 11:50 AM   #143
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Hi Mel, just thinking of you and checking in to see how you and your babies - big and small - are doing. Let us know when you have a chance.

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Unread 12-10-2012, 03:08 PM   #144
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Hello Again!


I am so, so, sorry I haven't been on in a while. I am wearing out a new path in the carpet. From the crib, to the bed, to the bouncy chairs, to the bottles in the kitchen. It has been so crazy busy since these two started sleeping better at night. It's like when they're awake, they're wide open! They started rolling over too, found their hands, started babbling and they "found" each other. It's the cutest thing to wake up and hear them talking to each other in their crib. They are 3.5 months now. Wish I could freeze time. I added a few more pictures to the photobucket link a few posts up. We are getting our holiday pictures done over the weekend at grandmas house.



Between these 2 paragraphs, I had to move the critters from the bouncy seats to the crib for their nap. They keep me busy and so happy



Everything is going well. Getting geared up for Christmas, doing well on my better eating habits, getting out more, sleeping more, stressing less. My oldest two kids are doing well. They really seem to enjoy the babies a lot more now that they can "do stuff!" My DH is still out of town working Monday through Friday and got a pretty nice promotion for doing so well on the job. He's going to have his own crew, a company truck and a gas card by March. Good news and more money! So grateful that I really don't "have" to go back to work right now. I do miss it but, I couldn't imagine leaving these babies and kids for someone else to look after. Maybe when DH gets back to working around town, I'll go back to picking up some night shifts on the weekends.



Sobriety is great, not sure how many months it is now. Let me look. It'll be 15 months next week! I'm feeling great. I STILL struggle with craving a cigarette every now and again but, won't let myself fall back into it. I just keep thinking that, if I can kick the bear of oxy/fent, then I can keep kicking the smokes. No alcohol either, it's just not worth the risk, you know? I am continuing on the Tenuate but, I don't find I feel any different if I forget to take the dose each day. I went 2 days this weekend to just see how I felt and nothing crazy. I just wanted to eat more but, I didn't. I'm down over 30 lbs since having the babies



I hope everyone is well and wish you all a Very Merry Christmas! I pray someone out in cyber space will read this thread and get a flicker of help. That would be the best present I could hope for this year. Thanks for always being here.


Much Love, As Always,
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Unread 12-11-2012, 08:45 AM   #145
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Geez Mel, no need to apologize!! You have your hands full with those two little adorable cuties! OMG, they are precious! Good thing hubby is getting a raise, you'll need to buy new carpet soon with all the paths you've worn in them... Congrats to him on the promotion!

It's great to hear that you're taking care of yourself and are feeling good. Great job on the weight loss too, that must help alot in your feeling better. That's funny about your older kids with the little ones. Guess it makes sense though - they're more entertaining now that they're not just sleeping, pooping, and eating!

Wow!! Coming up on 15 months! CONGRATULATIONS! Mel, we have so many more people read than post here; i KNOW you've inspired many, many people and I thank you for that.

Wishing you and yours a very Merry Christmas and the happiest of New Years. That is, if the Mayans aren't right...

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Unread 12-12-2012, 08:57 AM   #146
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You Rock Mel So good to hear from you!! You sound great, Im so happy everything is going so good for you and the family. Congrats on the 30lb weight loss, thats awesome! I quit smokinng a week or so ago, well.....I should say I quit cigarettes. I got one of those vapor thingys where you still get nicotine but not the harmful tar and stuff. It works good and I can lower the dose of nicotine as time goes on.
Anyways, again, good to hear from you and congrats on your upcoming 1 months. AWESOME.
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Unread 12-19-2012, 02:42 PM   #147
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Hey MommaMel, OMG those little ones are so frickin' cute! Very cool that you're taking care of YOURSELF. MommaMel has to be happy and healthy. Do you get any you time at all? Like even a couple of hours here and there to recharge. That's a lot of stuff going on with your husband gone all week.

Look at you rock with the 15 months woman! Congrats!

Lots of positive energy and cuddly hugs to all. Happy Christmas and happy 2013! -Mary
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Hello Mel, just checking in to see how things are going with you. Hope you had a nice Christmas, the first one with the twins. Stop by and say hi when you can!
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Hey guys,

Quick check in here. Everyone is doing well.We had a scare with Baby James. It has been a crazy busy month. His head was growing too fast too big too quickly. We were worried about a mass or water on the brain. Thankfully after a quick trip to Egleston a CT scan stated a benign enlargement of the head. No big deal. Very thankful all is okay.

My son is struggling with everything. His behavior, experimenting with weed and alcohol. After busting him for smoking cigarettes, everything got worse. I'm taking him to see a therapist this week. He's just confused, lost and sad. He's been on Zoloft for over a year now.

The babies are 5 months old now. Doing great. Almost crawling. They are really getting to be a lot more work. More mobile and aware. Healthy healthy Rosie is 17lbs and James 16 lbs now.

I'm doing okay. Super stressed but, sober. Will update more soon. Thank you all for being here!

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Unread 02-04-2013, 11:06 AM   #150
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Hi Momma Mel! I'm glad to hear that Baby James is ok. That was quite a scare! Yikes. I can't believe they're 5 months old already and scooting around.

I really hope that the therapist is a fit for your son. If not, keep looking. It's sad to hear he's struggling, but fingers crossed that this will help him immensely. I'll keep him in my thoughts.

It's so nice to hear from you knowing how busy and stressed you are right now.
Keeping hope that things calm down and become less stressful soon.

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