Addiction Survivors

Notices

Reply
Unread 04-03-2015, 01:36 PM   #51
Saint
Senior Member
 
Saint's Avatar
 
Posts: 2,364
Default

Hysteria,

Sobriety is possible for you. Put the work in and you will reap the results. You only have to stay sober for today, tomorrow is a new day. Don't worry about slipping, keep moving forward, keep posting here.

Be kind to yourself,
Saint
Saint is offline   Reply With Quote
Unread 04-09-2015, 10:13 PM   #52
lostdog
Senior Member
 
Posts: 2,942
Default

Hysteria, I hope you are doing well, let us know how you are, Have a nice day!
lostdog is offline   Reply With Quote
Unread 05-22-2015, 01:16 PM   #53
Hysteria
Junior Member
 
Posts: 28
Default

I can't keep doing this. Ugh. Why is this so hard?
Hysteria is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to Hysteria For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-25-2015)
Unread 05-22-2015, 01:45 PM   #54
lostdog
Senior Member
 
Posts: 2,942
Default

Hi Hysteria, glad to hear from you. So happy to hear from you! Have you found a support group that meets in person or counseling? It may help you. Just try one day at a time and when you get the urge, distract yourself and think through the drink. All the way to the miserable end. The key word is miserable in drinking...
lostdog is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to lostdog For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-25-2015)
Unread 05-22-2015, 05:16 PM   #55
R. Lee
Senior Member
 
Posts: 4,984
Default

Hysteria, Take it 1 day at a time. Think through that next urge to drink. Read iamtrying's daily post on how he does it. So far it has worked for him.
R. Lee is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to R. Lee For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-25-2015)
Unread 05-22-2015, 09:14 PM   #56
Hysteria
Junior Member
 
Posts: 28
Default

Now is the time. It has to be real for more than a few days. I'm starting to have some health issues, and I'm coming face to face with whether I want to keep slowly killing myself little by little, or if I want to be healthier better me for myself and my family.

I want to see my kids grow up and have meaningful relationships with my grandchildren.

I'm ashamed and guilty, but I'm not going to let that push me back towards the bottle. Not this time. It has gone too far and I want my life back! I'm praying hard. If you're a praying person, please pray for me too.

I will try to check in each day.
Hysteria is offline   Reply With Quote
2 Users Say Thank You to Hysteria For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-23-2015), Thank You (05-25-2015)
Unread 05-23-2015, 07:58 AM   #57
Alexis
Senior Member
 
Posts: 3,724
Default

Thinking of you Hysteria, be strong <3 x
Alexis is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to Alexis For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-25-2015)
Unread 05-23-2015, 10:22 AM   #58
R. Lee
Senior Member
 
Posts: 4,984
Default

Hysteria, You can do it. Keep to the basics.
R. Lee is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to R. Lee For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-25-2015)
Unread 05-23-2015, 10:54 AM   #59
lostdog
Senior Member
 
Posts: 2,942
Default

just checking on you, how are you? have a nice day.
lostdog is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to lostdog For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-25-2015)
Unread 05-23-2015, 11:52 AM   #60
iamtrying
Senior Member
 
Posts: 703
Default

Hysteria - Alcohol is slow poison...make sobriety as priority, we are with you...take one day at a time...
iamtrying is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to iamtrying For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-25-2015)
Unread 05-24-2015, 11:18 AM   #61
Hysteria
Junior Member
 
Posts: 28
Default

3 days sober. Going to do it again today.
Hysteria is offline   Reply With Quote
3 Users Say Thank You to Hysteria For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-25-2015), Thank You (05-25-2015), Thank You (05-25-2015)
Unread 05-24-2015, 11:48 AM   #62
lostdog
Senior Member
 
Posts: 2,942
Default

way to go Hysteria, You are doing GREAT!
lostdog is offline   Reply With Quote
2 Users Say Thank You to lostdog For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-24-2015), Thank You (05-25-2015)
Unread 05-24-2015, 08:21 PM   #63
R. Lee
Senior Member
 
Posts: 4,984
Default

Hysteria, Way to go on 3 days sober. Positive thinking works. You are a winner.
R. Lee is offline   Reply With Quote
2 Users Say Thank You to R. Lee For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-26-2015), Thank You (05-25-2015)
Unread 05-25-2015, 05:52 AM   #64
Tryntryagain
Senior Member
 
Posts: 3,249
Default

Good morning Hysteria. Bright blessings to you.

This is a massive step forward for you. These first few steps are so liberating, challenging for sure, but so, so so worth it.

Fancy that....your own life back free of the downward drag of poison in your blood!!

1 day at a time, you WILL get there.

Be peaceful, be calm, be healthy and be strong. Loveness to you Hysteria
Tryntryagain is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to Tryntryagain For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-26-2015)
Unread 05-25-2015, 10:59 AM   #65
Saint
Senior Member
 
Saint's Avatar
 
Posts: 2,364
Default

Hysteria,

We here have all felt the shame and guilt of our addiction. You are right to let go of those feelings, they hold us back, they prevent us from moving forward, they prevent us from believing in ourselves.

You are worthy of sobriety. Do believe in yourself. Make sobriety the most important thing in your life and continue to move towards that goal. We move towards and become that which we think about. If we think of a sober life we will work towards that end.

We are here for you. Glad you are back!!

Regards,
Saint
Saint is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to Saint For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-26-2015)
Unread 05-26-2015, 10:36 AM   #66
Hysteria
Junior Member
 
Posts: 28
Default

Thanks everyone. Yesterday was the toughest day so far, but I managed to get through it.

I can't post here as often as I would like, but I will continue to check in when I can. Please continue to send prayers and positive thoughts my way! It makes a difference!
Hysteria is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to Hysteria For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-26-2015)
Unread 05-26-2015, 10:55 AM   #67
R. Lee
Senior Member
 
Posts: 4,984
Default

Hysteria, Keep working it one day at a time.
R. Lee is offline   Reply With Quote
2 Users Say Thank You to R. Lee For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-26-2015), Thank You (05-26-2015)
Unread 05-26-2015, 11:39 AM   #68
Tryntryagain
Senior Member
 
Posts: 3,249
Default

Good afternoon Hysteria. Bright blessings to you.

If what you are looking for is the eclectic and multifarious humongous beauty that is all of us together.....you got it.

(Incorporates all creed, culture, belief, and falling off the hill stuff)

From my brothers ans sisters here i got, "drip....drip.....drip...drip ....loveness and understanding".

Now if Tryn could possibly dress that up any other way he would.

Love and understanding is not "what is says on the tin".....it is the tin.

We can wander and cartwheel through our expected, thought of, should have, could have lives.....then there is the one we forgetfully lead.

1 day at a time Hysteria.

Be peaceful, be healthy and be strong. Loveness to you Hysteria
Tryntryagain is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to Tryntryagain For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-26-2015)
Unread 05-26-2015, 02:20 PM   #69
Millie
Senior Member
 
Posts: 2,442
Default

Great job, Hysteria. You can do this.
Millie is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to Millie For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-26-2015)
Unread 05-26-2015, 03:50 PM   #70
Hysteria
Junior Member
 
Posts: 28
Default

Just told a friend of mine (that I suspect is also an alcoholic) that I couldn't go with him to get a drink(s) after work after he asked. I think he was a little surprised. He could almost always count on me to drink with him. I had wondered over the past few days what my response would be when he asked. I'm glad I told him I couldn't.

One day at a time.

I'm so emotional. I just want to crawl in my bed and cry. I can't believe I let this happen to me over the past few years. Now, I have to do what's right and get better. God, please help me.
Hysteria is offline   Reply With Quote
Unread 05-26-2015, 04:14 PM   #71
Millie
Senior Member
 
Posts: 2,442
Default

I'm sorry you're feeling down. The past is in the past, and you do have a great opportunity to make your life better. You should be proud of yourself. You did the right thing, and the hard thing. Good job.
Millie is offline   Reply With Quote
Unread 05-26-2015, 04:22 PM   #72
Hysteria
Junior Member
 
Posts: 28
Default

Thanks, Millie. I struggle with depression and anxiety which in the past I self medicated with beer or vodka... often both. The truly sad thing is that I have a beautiful wife that loves me, four awesome children that love me, and a solid career. There's no real reason to wash away in a sea of booze, but I still did it, which makes me depressed, which pushed me back to the booze. See the endless cycle?

At any rate, I'm having to own my emotions now, and not numb them, and they're very overwhelming right now. I have finally made a definite decision to live without alcohol for the rest of my life. Of course, I will take it one day at a time, but I don't want it, I don't need it, and I envision my life 30 years from now after finally giving up the drink for good... Spending time with my grown children and my grandchildren.

I'm 37 now, so I know I'm young enough to get healthy and live a long life. I want that for me and my family. More than anything. Certainly more than another drink.

Thanks for listening... this helps alot.

Last edited by Hysteria; 05-26-2015 at 04:27 PM..
Hysteria is offline   Reply With Quote
Unread 05-26-2015, 04:36 PM   #73
Millie
Senior Member
 
Posts: 2,442
Default

I'm in the same boat. History of self-medication for depression and anxiety, which of course alcohol *causes* as well. So there's a cycle in itself. And yep, successful marriage, lovely life in general, absolutely no reason to go blank. Yet I have kept doing it.

We don't need to. And we don't need to look back.

I've noticed that when I'm running, if I look behind me, I risk tripping and falling. I've found that to be a pretty good analogy for this journey. If you want to stay upright and not hurt yourself, there is only one direction: forward.

(Which is to say -- be kind to yourself, please. You are worth it!)

Last edited by Millie; 05-26-2015 at 04:52 PM..
Millie is offline   Reply With Quote
Unread 05-26-2015, 05:23 PM   #74
Hysteria
Junior Member
 
Posts: 28
Default

Millie, thanks for the support. I think now that I have really gotten serious about getting sober, I am going to start running again myself. I ran in my 20's and early 30's, but as booze took over, I quit running because it was interfering with my addiction. Now, it might help me move on from it.

Thanks again for talking.
Hysteria is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to Hysteria For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-26-2015)
Unread 05-26-2015, 08:11 PM   #75
R. Lee
Senior Member
 
Posts: 4,984
Default

Hysteria, Yes one day at a time. Just don,t drink today. You will learn to forgive yourself when you realize that you drank because your an alcoholic. We can recover but we are never cured.
R. Lee is offline   Reply With Quote
2 Users Say Thank You to R. Lee For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-27-2015), Thank You (05-28-2015)
Unread 05-27-2015, 11:57 AM   #76
iamtrying
Senior Member
 
Posts: 703
Default

Hysteria-- one day at a time...i write every day and I practice it. if that will help you can do that....when you write it you are in the game and you oblige to follow it, atleast that works for me...Good going....stick to it...

As JenM wrote - "...nothing is worth drinking over, ever"
iamtrying is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to iamtrying For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-27-2015)
Unread 05-27-2015, 02:32 PM   #77
lostdog
Senior Member
 
Posts: 2,942
Default

You can do it Hysteria, I believe in you.
lostdog is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to lostdog For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-27-2015)
Unread 05-27-2015, 11:16 PM   #78
Hysteria
Junior Member
 
Posts: 28
Default

Thanks everyone. I'm hanging in there, one day at a time. No drinking today. I'll worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
Hysteria is offline   Reply With Quote
3 Users Say Thank You to Hysteria For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-28-2015), Thank You (05-28-2015), Thank You (05-28-2015)
Unread 05-28-2015, 12:15 AM   #79
Saint
Senior Member
 
Saint's Avatar
 
Posts: 2,364
Default

Keep working it Hysteria. One step at a time. Change your thinking, change your life!

Saint
Saint is offline   Reply With Quote
2 Users Say Thank You to Saint For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-29-2015), Thank You (05-28-2015)
Unread 05-28-2015, 09:51 AM   #80
R. Lee
Senior Member
 
Posts: 4,984
Default

Great job Hysteria.
R. Lee is offline   Reply With Quote
2 Users Say Thank You to R. Lee For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-29-2015), Thank You (05-28-2015)
Unread 05-28-2015, 02:01 PM   #81
Millie
Senior Member
 
Posts: 2,442
Default

Good thinking, Hysteria!
Millie is offline   Reply With Quote
2 Users Say Thank You to Millie For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-29-2015), Thank You (05-28-2015)
Unread 05-28-2015, 06:10 PM   #82
lostdog
Senior Member
 
Posts: 2,942
Default

good work!
lostdog is offline   Reply With Quote
2 Users Say Thank You to lostdog For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-29-2015), Thank You (05-28-2015)
Unread 05-28-2015, 07:37 PM   #83
Tryntryagain
Senior Member
 
Posts: 3,249
Default

Good evening Hysteria. Bright blessings to you.

I know it is hard to put "well done you" into words. It can mean so many things to as many people.

Evolving into who you really are...is amazing.

Be peaceful, keep purposeful strength. Loveness to you Hysteria
Tryntryagain is offline   Reply With Quote
2 Users Say Thank You to Tryntryagain For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-29-2015), Thank You (05-28-2015)
Unread 05-29-2015, 10:37 AM   #84
Hysteria
Junior Member
 
Posts: 28
Default

STILL SOBER! ONE WEEK!

I feel great, and the urges are getting less dominant. I know I have to keep my guard up, but this is a milestone for me.

I'll keep posting. No drinks today!
Hysteria is offline   Reply With Quote
3 Users Say Thank You to Hysteria For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-29-2015), Thank You (05-29-2015), Thank You (05-29-2015)
Unread 05-29-2015, 12:00 PM   #85
Tryntryagain
Senior Member
 
Posts: 3,249
Default

Good afternoon Hysteria. Bright blessings to you.

Utterly top banana to you. Gosh that first week is so terribly important. If you can find the time, perhaps jot down how you feel now, what graciousness sobriety empowers, you know that self awareness and whatnot? (How patronising did that sound?....truly not meant)

Whilst i drank, a week....well i was going onto say something along the lines of it took a very long time, but i suppose the truth of the matter was that the fact a "week" had 7 days in it, of no consequence to me at all. Now it has.

Isn't living free just the tops?

Be peaceful, enjoy, be strong. Loveness to you Hysteria.
Tryntryagain is offline   Reply With Quote
Unread 05-29-2015, 01:25 PM   #86
Saint
Senior Member
 
Saint's Avatar
 
Posts: 2,364
Default

Congrats Hysteria! ! Keep working it. One day at a time!!

Saint
Saint is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to Saint For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-31-2015)
Unread 05-29-2015, 07:57 PM   #87
lostdog
Senior Member
 
Posts: 2,942
Default

nice job!
lostdog is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to lostdog For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-31-2015)
Unread 05-30-2015, 11:28 AM   #88
iamtrying
Senior Member
 
Posts: 703
Default

Awesome! great going..don't lose track...do it one day at a time...
iamtrying is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to iamtrying For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-31-2015)
Unread 05-30-2015, 11:29 AM   #89
R. Lee
Senior Member
 
Posts: 4,984
Default

Great job on a week being sober Hysteria.
R. Lee is offline   Reply With Quote
One User Says Thank You to R. Lee For This Useful Post:
Thank You (05-31-2015)
Unread 05-31-2015, 11:54 AM   #90
Tryntryagain
Senior Member
 
Posts: 3,249
Default

Hello Hysteria. Bright blessings to you.

A very "overcast day" in dear old Blighty.

Voices being swept along, and swept away by the wind that collects such things, and drops wishes and good thoughts across the landscape of another.

I had occasion yesterday to ask if quite the most beautiful flowering i had seen in a long time was a wisteria. Tryn knows nothing about these things.

I could not help but hope your day was as beautiful.

Our love brings vibrancy to wandering and wondering souls. Here there are those that join you in your journey.

Would be smashing to hear from you.

Be peaceful, be healthy and be strong. Loveness to you Hysteria
Tryntryagain is offline   Reply With Quote
Unread 05-31-2015, 10:49 PM   #91
gmasusie
Senior Member
 
Posts: 1,943
Default

Hysteria,

Regardless of where you are and what you are doing, we want to hear from you.

Love, Susie
gmasusie is offline   Reply With Quote
Reply

Thread Tools

Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is Off
HTML code is Off




All times are GMT -4. The time now is 04:39 PM.


Powered by vBulletin® Version 3.8.7
Copyright ©2000 - 2019, vBulletin Solutions, Inc.
© 2014 Addiction Survivors